Once upon a time there was a girl who wanted to live a good life and tried to. Some bad things happened in her life… hurtful things. These things left a scar on the inside that she couldn’t see. This scar never really healed. Sometimes she was acutely aware of it, and other times either pretended it wasn’t there. Otherwise, she was so used to it that she was oblivious to its presence. But somehow it always oozed out and got the better of her in one way or another. It caused her to act in ways she ordinarily wouldn’t. She even blamed others for this scar. After all, they were the ones who inflicted the wounds. However much time had passed. And yes, some scars heal slowly, but, somehow this one was taking very, very long. It was then she decided to stand up for herself and be brave and DO something about it. She decided to get help. It would take a community and counsel to help her on her healing journey. She still has a long way to go, but, she is nowhere near where she used to be. She is growing. A big part of the puzzle to healing was/is forgiving herself. She couldn’t play into the negative self talk. And for us Christians, we know we have an adversary in the devil who seeks to steal from us, kill us (in many forms) and destroy us. BUT we have a God who is much bigger! He’s almighty, all-powerful, all-knowing and he LOVES and FORGIVES US! Therefore, if the God of the universe forgives us, surely she is allowed to forgive herself. And when negative ideas invade her space, she combats them with the truth and with counsel and with community. Forgive yourself. Jesus already forgave you. He loves you. Live free.
If you can relate to any of this, I want you to know that you don’t have to live in constant anxiety and regret. There is peace available for you in Christ. He sacrificed his life so that you could have peace in Him. As the Son of God, he died a sinless death and offered himself up for the sins of all of the people in the world, not just during his time on earth, but, throughout all time. So, there is nothing you could’ve done that he wouldn’t forgive you for. Even if it’s the most vile thing. His forgiveness means just that…you are forgiven. Your slate is wiped clean in his eyes and you are free to begin to live a new life in Christ if you believe in him and accept him as God in your life. Does this mean that everything will be rosy? No, BUT, it does mean the now God is with you to help you through this life every step of the way. He provides his word to us through the Bible and he has some really solid churches that teach the truth and are loving communities where you can grow. It is sometimes hard to find the right church, but, keep praying and he will show you where to go. All of that to say, you can have the peace of Christ in your heart. You do not have to live in inner turmoil. You can have forgiveness and in turn forgive yourself. He understands our frailties and has provided help for us. May the love of Christ overwhelm you and give you peace.
© KD Corner 2013 “Forgiving Me”
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