Faith, Growth, Trust…help!

I haven’t been blogging regularly because I’ve been busy with everything else.  I’m trying to get some ideas off of the ground and establish some things so that they can grow. It’s hard work.  But, in the process, I’ve neglected my writing.

I’ve also been somewhat inwardly hesitant to share my faith, although I press forward and make myself do it anyway.  This society, for all of its shouts of “intolerance!” seems to be intolerant of Christianity. But, I get it.  Christianity has not had many stellar moments over the last several years.  Church organizations are run by people.  People are flawed.  And Christianity in the Western world has a past that is not anything to brag about.  It’s been used for manipulative purposes.  It’s been used to control.   It’s been used to oppress.  It’s been used to condemn.  None of these were the original intent.  We “the collective church” have not been good at leading with love.  But, I think there is hope.  There is a remnant, a faction if you will of believers who are rejecting all of the pomp and circumstance, the lack of authenticity and the pious arrogance of what the church has come to be known for and is instead seeking to take off the mask, get real, and get messy in seeking truth and in loving people, all people.

With that being said, I’ll be sharing more about my faith, knowing some will not want to hear about it.  But, to not share it would be to reject an essential part of who I am.  This is part of my truth and I seek to be authentically me.   I hope that some will relate to it, even if they don’t ascribe to the faith part of it.

God is calling me to a new level of trust.  This is a big deal for me because trusting God was a really difficult road for me.  As a child, I trusted God with the innocence of a child.  As I grew, I experienced a major betrayal of trust in my teens and it scarred me.  Trusting God was not something I was able to do for awhile because I was angry and bitter.  Thankfully, my love for God and my faith in God, though at times weak and small, never died.  God can work with ‘just a little’.  Over the years, I’ve worked hard at trusting God and the hard work has paid off.  Now, He’s calling me higher and it’s not all rainbows and puppies, let me tell you.  This new level of trust is also hard work.  It’s exposing all of my ‘yuck’ in the process.  Sometimes we get to a place where we think we’ve got a pretty good grasp on things.  We feel good about the level of maturity we’ve reached and how far we’ve come.  But, then God calls us to a new level of growth.  The growth process is not comfortable.  It’s work, it’s ‘sweat’, it’s humility and acknowledging we still have a ways to go, and it’s admitting you’re not as ‘together’ as you thought you were.  But, the rewards of growth in God’s hands are immeasurable.  I’m looking forward to seeing all of the new things God will do!

For any of you who are like me, and God is calling you to new / higher levels, keep trusting Him.  Keep allowing God to work on you:  to work some things out of you, as well as work some things into you.  He will help you!  And remember to have awesome brothers and sisters in the faith to link arms with you, so that you can keep one another lifted up along the way.

Much love, much peace.

~ Kay Dee

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Observations

Happy Belated Thanksgiving! I hope that you all had a nice holiday filled with thankfulness, blessings and family & friends. I hope you had the chance to reflect on what to be thankful for, not just on that day, but always. I spent the day with family and I’m thankful.

In my personal time, I’ve been reading through the bible at my own pace. Right now I’m reading through Exodus. It’s funny how when you take your time to re-read something that you haven’t read in a while, how different tidbits pop out at you that hadn’t previously stood out. I like it.

Right now, I’m at the part where Moses just led the people of Israel across the Red Sea (referenced in a previous blog post) and how quick they were to complain about every little thing afterward. At one point they said, “Did God save us from the Egyptians only to bring us out here in the desert to starve? What are we supposed to eat, huh?? It’d be better if we were back in Egypt eating the delicious food of the Egyptians” (Ex.16:2-3, paraphrase mine). Wow, really?  Because it seems to me you (Israelites) were just groaning and complaining from YEARS of slavery and ill-treatment at the hands of the Egyptians. Just sayin’. As for the food, of course, God provided food and everything else they needed for that matter. What amazes me is that previous to their complaints, just after they’d come across the ocean on dry land and saw their enemies drowned, it says they “feared (reverenced) the Lord and put their trust in Him and in Moses his servant” (Ex.14:31).  How quickly they turned from trusting to complaining. But, that just puts me in check. How soon after any blessings I receive do I go back to complaining or doubting or worrying, etc.? Food for thought.

Another thing that stood out to me was when Moses’ father-in-law came to visit him (Exodus 18). His name was Jethro, and Jethro was so pleased to hear about all of the miraculous things God was doing. But, when he saw that all day long, every day, Moses was consumed with judging disputes between the people (and remember this was a humongous group of people), he gave his son-in-law some timely advice. He told him at the rate he was going, he’d burn himself out. Judging disputes between members of such an overwhelmingly large group of people was too much for just one person to handle.  He advised Moses to put a different system in place, which included dividing the people into smaller groups and appointing trustworthy, wise, honest men of integrity to be in charge of their assigned group. This way, these men could judge the smaller disputes for their alloted group of people and only larger or more difficult disputes would be brought before Moses. In other words, he told him to DELEGATE. Well, that speaks to me on a couple of levels. Are there times when I try to be “superwoman”, hence burning myself out instead of just asking for reliable help, or delegating duties to others? Hmm. 🙂  Also, it reminds me of how God is faithful to bring the right people along at the right times to help us or advise us on certain matters. His timing IS impeccable. And as I look back at certain situations in my life, I can definitely see how ‘this’ or ‘that’ person came along at exactly the right time to give me needed encouragement or advice. I know that was the Lord’s doing and I’m thankful. I hope He continues to do that for me.

Ok, have a great weekend!

Toodles ♥

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